Life is full of questions and doubts.

And we all reach points in our life where we have no idea why we feel so lonely all of a sudden, or why it seems like nothing is working out or even what decision we need to make.

Sometimes it seems like world the is working against you. But it really isn’t.

Life sometimes holds a series of mistakes or fails for you.

Sometimes you get dizzy with everything going around you. And sometimes you’re quietly screaming and other times you’re silently begging.

It’s easy to be brought down in times like these. It’s easy to become afraid because you think you’re going to fail.

But that doesn’t mean it’s not painful.

It’s hard to keep an optimistic outlook at times like these. It’s hard to keep fighting.

Or at least it is for most of us.

But does anyone realize how much easier everything is when there is just one thing supporting you? Some of us are blessed enough to have an entire family and good friends and even a pet cat supporting us.

For others, faith alone is enough to keep them going.

I wonder what separates those who do eventually give up from those who keep moving forward even if they seem almost dead.

I’m not an optimist. But I’m not really a pessimist.

I’m more like a fighter. Who loves the fights, but loves complaining all the same. I feel like my life is sometimes a series of mistakes. And sometimes, I get terrified because I feel helpless. And I hate feeling helpless. And I start feeling lonely, because I don’t know if there is anyone who understands my feelings.

But when I’m down, I pick myself up. And I don’t know if anyone can pick me up as well I can for myself.  Because I know, that my life’s stresses are not that bad. It doesn’t take much to convince myself that others have bigger problems and that I’m acting dramatic.

Don’t worry I’m not emo.
I secretly love life.

I love water. I love food. I love having a good time. I love realizing when I succeed in something. I love feeling independent.

Sometimes, I don’t understand how people can be so down and depressed all the time. For me it takes something as simple as watching a flock of birds to make me smile and feel happy again.

I make it a habit to look at the sky everytime I step out at night. And then become enveloped with the beauty of the sky.

I like acting like an idiot, just to make people laugh.

I like walking by myself at Wayne State’s campus at night.

I like believing I can make a difference.

I believe that everything I experience or see is important to learning to become a better person.

And if I need help I’ll ask for it. Just a call away. A friend. A cousin. My mom. Or a room away. My cat.

You might believe that it’s easy for someone to speak of being happy because they are not going through what you are going though.

And I agree.

I only have a small idea of the pain people are going through. But I think it must be so much harder to not see the things around you that make you happy.

I like to make myself believe that God has something special for me.

For those of us, living here in America, safe, going to college or school or work or whatever, life is never as bad as we make it seem.

It’s hard at times. Whether it be something like an exam or watching your parent become more sick every day.

Go ahead, feel sad or overwhelmed. But don’t get caught in that downward spiral.

It’s even sadder if you’re missing all the great things around you.

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